Monday, March 06, 2006
I feel freaking betrayed. I feel that i was so cheated, treating people so well and everything. In the end all i get is hurt, hurt and more hurt. I dont know what's come into me, but i just feel so darn bad. What is this world all about, where you purposely do things to certain people and not to some others. Please. Its not very nice, its super annoying. Okay, i really feel like breaking down, but can I? No, maybe i was too guillable, getting hurt time and time again. I really feel like just breaking off communications with the world. Goodness, what have people become. I just feel so pissed at people. Irritans, i really regret doing whatever i did for anyone. Totally. I'm promising myself not to get myself hurt anymore. I dont care if they feel hurt, anymore. I just want to be happy, not getting hurt again and again. I feel so used. You didnt make me hurt behind my back, but openly. Thanks alot kid. Please Lord, tell me what i should do, to let me get rid of these hurts. I really cannot take it anymore. Dont look at me just on the outside. But try to understand the freaking pains i'm going through, all stuck in me. Who can i share all these with, all they'll do is console. Or worst, spread. I dont want that. I really dont know who i can really trust and rely on.
Today had training and went to eat at fep with the team, then went to heeren to meet people. Then went home. Dont feel like elaborating much.
Thanks for making my day freaking miserable, Thanks alot.
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